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not a reliable source tbh. toluene isn't used in paint, it's paint thinner, rubber cement, or modelling glue (or other similar use glues). It isn't found in paint, the thing in spray paint that gets you high are other fluorocarbons.
does it really matter? Only a retard would huff paint. Surely no grimchan user is that dumb.
ahaha yeah surely not
Having an altered connection to life around you is weird. I've managed to grab on to the feeling a few times, without any sort of drugs or what have you. But it's by no means an easy process and definitely not a permanent feeling. I came at a crossroads in my life where it became very important that I found a way to explain my meaning to myself. And I sort of managed to achieve this altered 'feeling of consciousness' once I achieved an explanation that was logically or rationally satisfying for myself. There's probably different ways of approaching the same feeling, I'm a very scientific person so that's probably why I had to take this route. But the feeling itself was quite… peculiar. Instead of just passively partaking in life without thinking twice about it, you very actively feel time and people and nature sort of flow and change around you. Almost like a cosmic river of living matter and ideas actively pouring into eachother, influencing eachother. And you see all these little bits and humans and things around you ebbing back and forth as tiny little cogs in this gigantic fucking machine. It's a very peculiar feeling and my peanut brain only manages to hold on to it for a few seconds at a time but it is a mindblowingly pleasant experience.
One very important key factor I know for sure is that you need to display curiosity. And a whole buttload of it. This isn't something people are born with, this is something everyone can force themselves to train and get better at. You simply need to take very active note of everything in your surroundings, and force yourself to ask questions. You look at a tree. What kind of tree is it? What can you tell about the leaves? Is something carved in the bark? Is there some branch that looks different? You look at a billboard. What kind of design is on it? What might have gone through the head of the designer? Why is the logo the way that it is? What is the connection between the logo and the company that's being advertised? You look at a girl. What is she wearing? What made her decide to wear it? How is her facial expression? Etc. etc. It's a very tough exercise, training your curiosity, and I think it might come almost akin to a form of meditation